Wednesday, November 29, 2006
This is so sad. I'm leaving Singapore today
Yet I'm crying so much,
I can flood the whole house.
All because of that one selfish bitch.
I swear to god I wun be acknowledging her
as a sister until i'm on my deathbed.
F*ck!
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I am in love with you.
You set me free.
I cant do this thing called life
without u here with me..
Coz I'm dangerously in love with u
I can't believe.
Just keep loving me.
The way you love
You loving me..
Its lyrics.
And tho lyrics can be all fairytale-ly..
The one written above succintly shows my exact feelings.
I hope I can survive the one week
without my family,
my late mp3,
my spoilt handphone,
my pathetic camera,
and my baby.
Baby Andy, don't u dare stray.
hahhahahaaaaa...
I love u.
Dan Alfatehah untuk MP3 ku yg sudah meninggalkan dunia ini.
Amin ya raballalamin.
Aper ketawa2?
Ingat kelakar kape?
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Friday, November 24, 2006
I'm crying now can't u see?
Are you happy now that you have hurt me??
Are you happy??
THANKS A LOT!!!
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As much as I'm trying to be understanding,
I still think that the other party hav a part to play.
I will be gone for a week.
And there's that whole week for u to have fun.
All I ask now is for u to spend QUALITY time with me.
Not some time spending rushing here and there,
meeting this and that.
I'm hurt right to the heart.
Surprisingly, u din noticed.
I want to act normal, as if I'm not hurt at all.
But my face and the tone of my voice are not trained to lie.
U want freedom, I downright understand.
But u see, I'll be gone one week now.
So, would u give me back ur understanding?
I'm pissed.
But I'm still trying to BE understanding.
It's ok.
I'm cool.
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I got a shocked of my life btw.
He says he still loves me.
I feel like slapping his face.
Y wait until a few months, and more significantly,
until I've found a new love?
Thanks for e teddy anyway.
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Bye people.
I'm off to Vivocity, which is very tentatively speaking.
And then to the weirdest wedding of the year.
Hahahhaah..
Rite NaD?
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And then I'm off to Indon.
With the people I think deserve my love more.
I'm gonna miss my mom.
And if anything happens to me there ( I said IF!),
please tell her I love her.
And Aisah, I miss u too!
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
I'm now currently at Seri's house. Can't tap her wireless.
Must be my ancient, extremely caledonian, uberly old laptop's fault.
Like I've always tell myself, tolong buang laptop kau aini.
bakar. campak. buang. hentak. hentam.
terajang. lemaskan. citot. hempap. cipot.
and many more.
But I shoud be thankful.
Think African children.
=)
Astaragfirullah halazim , ya Allah , sesungguhnya aku ni insan yang tak
kenal erti bersyukur.
tsk.
The girls, me, Seri and Deebz are currently colouring
our nails.
The girl, seri's sis's fren is one experiencing manicurist.
And I'm currently watching Step Up from the pirated CD with them.
=)
The briefing went well.
I'm uberly excited for the trip.
On the other hand, I'm really pissed with myself.
For spraining my arm.
It feels so dislocated.
I cant even comb my hair properly.
Worst of all, I've let fadhillah and nisa down.
tsk.
I don't know wat else to say.
I really want to go.
Haiz..
I'm really sorry guys.
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Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Now girlfriends, ladies and wives.
Do you gerls always fret when ur
reminded that ur man is not as smart
or as paper qualified as you?
Do you always worry that you will end up bringing
the bread home bcoz
u earn much higher than him?
Then take this piece of discovery as a reason
not to fret anymore.
It was discovered that the smarter
the man is, the more likely he is to stray.
In other words, the more brain juice he has,
the more vehement he is to release
his man juices every other nights with
every other girls.
John F Kennedy, for example, shocked
his PM when he admitted that
he needs to have sex everyday
or else he would suffer from headaches.
It would have been less shocking if the
lovemaking he meant was made to only one women.
Among some of his part time squeezes included
Marilyn Monroe and
Audrey Hepburn.
And god, was I shocked when I read that
Albert Einstein was scientist in e morning
but a Don Juan at night.
And this photo proves it! Hmm..
I'm sure u know what I mean..
Other than that, another shocking Lothario
would be the ever famous Charlie Chaplin. Don't mistake this
bofo looking comedian as being a chastely man
in reality. If you look closely, behind that
signature wacky smile, actually lies
a handsome face - I'm not lying!
And its that handsome face that gave him the power
behind the throne, or rather, the bed with other women.
So gerls, now that you've read abt this
new discovery, go to your
man whose less competent than you
and be thankful for the lack thereof.
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At random.
Went to collect my passport with B and
managed to hurt his feelings in da process.
Its not smething applaudable.
I'm sorry B.
=)
And, has anyone watched Casino Royale?
Please tell me wats its all abt coz I
slept thru half of e movie.
Not a fan of James Bond, LOTR , Harry Potter and
Matrix kinda movie.
=)
I'm weird? I've heard tat lotsa times.
And I'm happily typing while lying on my bed.
Thanks to the new wireless!!
Hurray!!
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Sunday, November 19, 2006
Isn't it a bizarre occurence that I'm updating my blog at a more frequent rate?In any case, it means that I'm down with boredom.Boredom is sucha bore.I'm not complaining tho coz it beats having to go to school.No wait, I HAVE to go to school!Then again, why bother?
Ok Nisa, please dun be angry. I'm not changing my mind.Last Friday I had to update my passport coz of the indon trip.But I will come to the next practice.How can I not?Fadhillah juz msged me words of encouragement.She's sucha darling.
So anyways, today had been the "Lazy Sunday".I mimeod NaD n had ice creams with B while chatting away the time. And yeps, it was simple yet goooOOood.Like what they always say, less is more.
Random.
I kinda need someone to slap me for being irrational and exceedingly childish. I know I'm being one freeaking biotch here but I can't help it. I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs at some people who apparently thinks that they are at the uppermost layer of humakind. I cringed with disgust everytime I hear them talk at nothing else but themselves.
I feel like landing some hard lashing slaps on their cheeks everytime they leave their unwelcomed comments. And please lah, whatever it is that he wants to do, let him do it lah. Kalau dier dah happy kenapa sibuk?
And puhlease, if u think u r uberly modelike, there is really no such importance to say it out loud and stomp on other homosapiens' self confidence. It only goes to show how much ur lacking of it. Unfortunately for YOUR own pleasure, she has more of it than you do.
Now that I know how ur like, I shall be more careful.
Don't stamp me baby coz I am capable of driving you at the end of ur wits. Mark my words. I'm only nice at the moment coz ur related to him by blood.
In any case, get lost.
Such perplex creature. Oh. I mean, me.
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Saturday, November 18, 2006
My boyfren suddenly looks more handsome. Thnks to my cabut kening skill. =)
My sis treated me to Ramenten. And e workers
bid us "ohayo gozaimast" which means good mrning.
And we ate at 10 pm!
And I fell in love with this video clip!
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Friday, November 17, 2006
Mak's lectures and all the tall talk is finally coming into place.She used to forbid me and kakak from indulging ourselves into the boy whom we (thought) we love in order to prevent ourselves from being hurt.
Love, she says, is not just a godsend cliche' as most song lyrics, novels or movies
gloriously preaches us so.
Love, she adds, is a journey and never a destination.In short, when I was young, she always drums into my ears to stop fiddling with the thought that the boy I was with is "The One" because I was too young to even guesstimate what "The One" means.
Now, after many many failed relationships, I've finally come into terms that maybe I was too young to understand what love means.How can I say "I love you"to someone when I don't know what it means? Deep down I (and most of us young ones) know that what we truly wanted to convey to the significant other is either "I want you"or "I need you" or for the more humbless ones, "I need you to be with me as an evident that I'm still being desired."
To say "I truly love you" is to understand that you truly accept the person for whoever he is, whatever his past may be and knows that you are able to live with his future. Additionally and conventionally, it is also about sacrifice and the other cliche-stuff-which-I-don't-have-to-repeat-here-coz-you-have-already-know-it.
Then again, why say the three letter phrase when its best left unspoken? After all, action speaks louder than words. So let your heart and your hands do the talking and do away with the age old "I love you" talk while staring into his eyes.
But of course, once in a while, your partner would like to have that assurance that he's still being 'loved' , reality aside.
Please don't start guessing that I've broke up with Andy juz becoz I'm writing sappy posts. I'm writing this coz I'm starting to learn what love means.
Even tho we both know how crazy we are about one another, we also realised the possibility of not being able to stay together in the future whatever the trigger may be. So like what he used to tell me, cherish and treasure the moments we have now.
And as I silently agree, I know that by trying not to be too serious and in other words, by not having too many expectations and setting up limits for each other, we are actually trying to save the relationship and bringing it to a higher level instead of the vice versa which many people wrongly believed. Then again, who am I to educate you about love?
Have a nice day while I whisper into his ears about how much I love need him.
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Tuesday, November 14, 2006
I'm tired of hearing Deja Vu on my blog and I think
Beyonce is also tired of singing it herself.
Anyway, I wasnt on hiatus and neither am I too lazy to update.
I'm juz plain busy and tired and all worn out.
What with OP and all.
I wanna go job searching with B soon.
Btw, my days with him are, to put in simple words, merry.
It has been quite some time since I sat with someone and laugh till my stomach hurts.
And plus, he's got washboard stomach.
=)
And like what the lyrics in Deja Vu says,
"..your sexiness is so amazing, I can't let it go.."
Fadhilah juz msged to remind about the Cheerleading practice.
I'm all BUT excited.
Ever seen a FAT cheerleader?
Catch our next performance and you can see ME!
I think I'm gonna quit. Give up.
Haiz..
And my holidays are freaking burnt.
The last of PW. Indon trip. GPA + practices. Rugby tournaments + training. Cheerleading (if i ever go). Homeworks. Shucks. I wanna live in a third world country.
Anyway. Pictures spanks speaks a thousand words.
If I cant let you know how much I love the ppl around me, let these photos speaks for themselves.
=)
And smile.
Coz the toa pek kong siam pat depan block aku dah tk bising lagi.
Singapore's Next Top Model.
With a lampost.
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Monday, November 13, 2006
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Tuesday, November 07, 2006
I've waited so long for some people to send me the Hari Raya photos. Maybe they forgot so I'll just make do with whatever I have.
The 0642A Jalan Raya!!
but not without controversies!
That's Elmo and Me!!
Ngong and Ngeng.
Us all. At Nana's house.
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Friday, November 03, 2006
They say, every dog has its day. I say, that female dog ALWAYS have her day. But too bad. Today isnt hers. In fact, none will be hers anymore.. hahahhhaahahh... suwiiitttt.
I'm talking fact here. Its not smething u would call 'bitching'. Its just a normal human feeling. On the other hand, maybe I shall not continue. Due to some reasons I think its better for things to be peaceful for now. Nanti aku dilabel controve-SIAL lagi. Haha.
Anyway, I just got back the camcorder and as usual, more kids' photos. Haizz.... All kids look the samelah. For all occasion at all times.
And I've uploaded all ze photos we took at swensens.
sedap sangat eh aisah.. ?hehe..
mentel nyer.but very modellish kan?
Hehe
his usual nose digging before tucking in.
heh
yummmyyyy...
A day at Swensens to celebrate sisterhood. Ngong , Ngeng and Ting.
And Tong. Thanks for the presence..
Ouch
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Thursday, November 02, 2006
Arghhhhhh!!!! I want my camcorder back!!!!
That's it lah, the next time I got my hands on that camcorder, I'm going to keep it inside my coli ! My sister always bring it to her school for some minor minor occasions to take pictures of kids. And somehow ALL the pictures she took for ALL occasions are only about kids. And I have to blardy sacrifice my PW interviews, momentos with my sistas and the Hari Raya outings just so that she could continue her cycles of taking photos of kids kids kids and nothing but kids. Tak masuk dek akal. Now the only uploading photos i see here are some naughty or step cute little junior yps running around and grinning like chimps. I now understand y Tong hates kids. They pollute. And should be sent to the incineration centre.
So, I believe there's no need to explain y my posts are photo-less?
Yes.
Good boys and girls.
The 0642A Malay peeps had the first Hari Raya outing. The day was a day to be remembered. =) We took lotsa photos and learnt a lot of new things. Like how important and privileged it is to have someone who knows all the bus routes which helps minimize time taken travelling and also prevented us from taking the wrong bus. And we also learnt that the funny bones runs in Dinie's family. And that Aisah laughs like her mom. And that Hafiz keeps Bus plates in his bed. Haha. And that Rosiana's brother is named Ronadinoh. Style kan?
Anyway, more updates later.
I love u more and more each day. How do I explain this butterflies in my stomach everytime I see u?
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Ngong and Ngeng.
