Aini
life has its own regrets.
but i lead it
n i make sure no ones else does.

ICE ANGEL

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DESIGNER:  ice angel

 

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 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

We took this photo while having brunch

at Delifrance

Such fond memories.

It rekindles e lovely feelings inside.

But apparently

the nice kenings will not be here to stay.

According to B, he

won't want to cukur again even tho he admits he looks

better after its been trimmed.

For whatever reasons I seriously feel

UNreasonable.

Then again, its my resolution

to be a nice-R gerlfren.

But.

Nicer need not mean nice.

It simply means less atrocious.

I'm not making sense actually kan.

Ahhh!!!

Pasal dalam kepala ni ada satu batu besar yg

tengah duduk!!

And it belongs to Cikgu Ali!!

Ya allah ya tuhanku,

Ape kena mengenanya adat perkahwinan dengan exams exams ku?

Haizzz.....

Oh yah.

Btw kan.

Jageendaz dgn akulahdraculah

tu sebenarnya Andy.

Akucekiktengkorakkaunanti,andy!!

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

"my loneliness is killing me.." - Britney Spears

Hell, yes its killing me.


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All of a sudden, I scrunitized my house and realized that

it IS big.

Or maybe because its empty that it looks big to me?

I'm not sure but e latter doesnt sound good.

I rather have my family at home than have all e freedom in e world

and family-less.

And I cant study properly.

I cant even think properly what more study.

And its already freaking Monday!

I can actually go clubbing or ton at town with some friends,

given e fact that I have all e freedom.

But its just not worth it.

Enjoyment is a one time adrenaline rush.

But education get me somewhere.

So i rather stay at home and study.

Then again, of course one movie doesnt hurt right?

Mak! Kakak!! Cepat balik dari Tanjung Pinang!!!

Aku sunyiiiiiii....

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

Its e holidays already....

I'm so gonna have a rockingcool

long weekends with the GPA babes..!!

And not to mention, I wanna watch

Ghost Rider and Norbit.

And when I get my pocket money,

I swear I'm gonna buy those pills.

Apparently my weight have been a problem to

some ppl and have indeed

added to my stresses.

No thnks Ma.

And.

If ur lucky enough, I might choose YOU as my movie date.

Not necessarily a guy.

Let's turn lesbian this weekend, ppl..!!

And.
And.

My dear 42A girls.

Remember our so called promise, or rather,

e unspoken agreement about going clubbing

after Fas's burfday?

Yeps.

Before we do club, lets werk our ass off together

in our studies and do our parents proud ok?

I'm being random I know, but I suddenly

feel this need to post this.

Coz I'm freaking pissed with some ppl.

To be more precise, e cheap ones.

Lets just called them 'those people'.

I dun know of any other terms that they deserved to be called.

Why would 'those people' go clubbing for enjoyment if

'those people' doesnt even deserved to?

I understand those rich ones or those who have

e executives, manager, bosses label.

Or at least a decent status.

Or jc/poly/uni students.

Coz they are the ppl who works their ass off and deserve e

entertainment and enjoy their fruits of labour.

Ni tidak.

Dahlah tak guna, tk betol, menyusahkan masyarakat.

Lagi nk have fun.

Dah menyusahkan mak bapak, lepas tu pergi enjoy.

Bodoh ah.

Menyampah aku.

Bodoh nak mampos.

Just a random post.

Its my blog , my say.

Happy holidays!

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

Its e holidays already....

I'm so gonna have a rockingcool

long weekends with the GPA babes..!!

And not to mention, I wanna watch

Ghost Rider and Norbit.

And when I get my pocket money,

I swear I'm gonna buy those pills.

Apparently my weight have been a problem to

some ppl and have indeed

added to my stresses.

No thnks Ma.

And.

If ur lucky enough, I might choose YOU as my movie date.

Not necessarily a guy.

Let's turn lesbian this weekend, ppl..!!

And.
And.

My dear 42A girls.

Remember our so called promise, or rather,

e unspoken agreement about going clubbing

after Fas's burfday?

Yeps.

Before we do club, lets werk our ass off together

in our studies and do our parents proud ok?

I'm being random I know, but I suddenly

feel this need to post this.

Coz I'm freaking pissed with some ppl.

To be more precise, e cheap ones.

Lets just called them 'those people'.

I dun know of any other terms that they deserved to be called.

Why would 'those people' go clubbing for enjoyment if

'those people' doesnt even deserved to?

I understand those rich ones or those who have

e executives, manager, bosses label.

Or at least a decent status.

Or jc/poly/uni students.

Coz they are the ppl who works their ass off and deserve e

entertainment and enjoy their fruits of labour.

Ni tidak.

Dahlah tak guna, tk betol, menyusahkan masyarakat.

Lagi nk have fun.

Dah menyusahkan mak bapak, lepas tu pergi enjoy.

Bodoh ah.

Menyampah aku.

Bodoh nak mampos.

Just a random post.

Its my blog , my say.

Happy holidays!

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

Come (its come, not cum, nad.. hehehe...) sing with me ppl.

Oh dia sudah keluar..

Oh dia boleh belah..

Oh nama dia siva..

Si guruku yg sungguh tk kelakar.

Heheh.

Din expect fassi to know this song.

Coz its ancient!!!

Anyway, I'm writing this with a tissue

stucked up my nose.

I dun know y e sudden flu

since I was really ok e day b4.

Schl has been ok today.

Learn that 'kepala' otak is considered an organ.

Hahahah... oklah ni inside joke.

Fairuz ah ni...!

Kelakar seram betol.

Eh, y everyday I blogged only about school ah?

Lyk no life sia.

Can I blog about holiday? or maybe abt going to Paris lah..

Oh meeting some popular singers..

Or maybe going to Disneyland..

But no.

My life stagnate around school and school work.

School and school work.

Its getting so mundane that a simple

movie is enough to make me truly orgasm.

Literally, an orgasm leaves a feeling of long lasting satisfaction and happiness.

Similarly, a simple movie which takes you away from e everyday

work would leave u a long lasting satisfaction and happiness.

Mr Seetho would be glad that his student is paying attention in class.

Other than the fact that there's e word 'orgasm' here.

Hhahaha..

Random. I might be playing reggaeton and reggae songs frm now.

Coz sesungguhnya aku peminat lagu lagu macam ni.

Andy plak peminat setia reggae.

I din know actually tt all my fav songs belongs to reggaeton genre.

Someone heard and exclaim, " eh kau peminat reggaeton eh!"

Oh.. gitu rupernyeeee...

Hmmm...

I hope my baby will get well soon.

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

I have a declaration to make.
Just today I realised that I have tons and tons
of unfinished readings.
geog. econs. even malay first chapter cerakin is unfinished.
How imbecile can I be?
Apart from e fact tt econs macroeconomics
are burning its candles at its both ends,
e geog teacher is making me even more confused
despite her attempt to un-confuse us.
This is what I call overwork, underpaid.
And that ali, he's getting on my nerves.
Dier ingat dier kelakar.
Sebenarnya kurang ajar.
How could he test us something which he have not even
impart to us yet.
Everything he did is touch and go.
Tak habis2 dgn semangat kemelayuan.
Its time for actions, not just coffee talks.



Thats it!
No more movie marathons for me.
At least not during school term.

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

Today sure is a strange day.

Firstly, e school feels empty.

And then e weather was hot yet for e first time in my life,

I din even perspire at all.

And then everyone else was dark and sunburnt.

It was even stranger when I shouted in Geog class.

Yelah, aini kan selalu nk step cool.

Kalau nk pekik pon maintain je...

Lagi worst when e school feels eery.

Eh, dah giler eh.

Pagi pagi buta pon eery.

(eery spell macam ni eh? maklumlah spelling aku rabak)

Eeeee.. weird nyer.

Is it just me or have I just caught Fairuz's merepek syndrome?

And I thank god for both Rose(s) I saw were e same Rose.

Hehehehheehe...

Oh yah.. I know.

What makes my day weirdest of all is when

I called Cikgu Ali and he said "YO!!" to me.

Ckplah hello ke. Wa alaikumsalam ke.

Terkejut beruk aku.

Ingat salah nombor.

Rupernyer salah makan ubat.

I so hate e new blogger.

Not user friendly sey.

Anyhoos.

Check this out.

www.zee-nd.blogspot.com

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

At long last, e funfair is overrrr...

In general, it was okay-okay.

But given e chance to do it all over again, I would

want e stalls to be located in e school hall.

On e oth hand, e haunted house was fun.

So many funny things happened in there.

Yah, funny instead of scary.

Someone grab Andy's leg, and instead of shouting,

he coolly said, "eh aper main tarik-tarik kaki ni?"

And when we handed e shoe over to e ghost (seri and izzati),

Andy asked e shoes back from them.

Hahahah....

And can still ask, "eh maner seri ni?"

Which one of e ghost replied.

"Akulah seri"

And Hafiz can still ask e ghost, "eh L1 R5 beraper?"

But I got one question to ask.

Kenape aku nampak dua Rosiana pat dalam?

I just realised it when I got back home.

Maklumlah, Im sure u guys have heard of stories whereby ppl have seen

real ghosts in a make-believe Haunted House.

ee.. bulu roma dan jembot berdiri...

Oh yah, did I mentioned that B got this

plush toy for me?

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

I really miss those times.
No barriers.
No jealousy.
No fights.
No arguments.
No misunderstanding.
Fuck.
I've gotten myself into e deep pit.
In e abyss of entangled mess.
In e point of so called 'no return'.
And only after a couple of months do I
realise e reason y.
I din give myself a chance.
For all e times I've experience
e 'ultimate' bastardo,
I din even stop to catch my breathe.
And there I was, jumping onto another
destiny ride and race.
The next time I experience another

heart shattering ultimatum (hopefully not!),

I swear to god,
I would give myself at the very least 2 yrs to recuperate
and enjoy whatever life has in store for me
- SINGLE.
Then again, I'm not giving up on e one I have right now.
Coz like I said, I've fallen into e deep pit.
Of entanglement and
deep love. If love even exists.



Grow up Aini.
This is not e way u handle problems.



I wanna tell u I love u.
That I'm afraid of losing u.
That I'm grateful tt ur mature and understanding.
I wanna tell u how glad I am with e way u r
and that I think about u 24/7.
Even tho I dun admit it.
I actually do.
You see my problem?
I'm full of ego.
And they say man are supposed to have more of it.
I want to tell u I'm sorry.

What happened was at majority my fault.
But shucks, sorry seems to be the hardest word.

I love u .

Ur e best I could have ever had...

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

Haha...

So much for the enthusiasm of going to schl.

I din go at last.

Coz apparently the knee got cramped in e morning

and I cant even stand up.

Thus, e absence.

Now, that was Tues.

Wed was a-okay.

And Thurs was erm.. okay-okaylah.

Cheer was fun and I was soooo lucky

I got e knee guard with me.

If not, I would have gotten another knee-slip(??)

Alahhh.. u know wat i mean kan...

Other than that, life has been pretty fine.

I@fun is around e corner and I have 6 tickets all by myself in

which I only paid for two.

The others were bought but e buyers din wanna cum.

Who would be very willing to , u tell me?

E oth schls are having their own and they hav done aggressive

advertising.

But ours is really pathetic.

Oh well..

And I've ordered e valentines day concert tickets.

But am now having second thoughts.

Coz Vday concert is on a school nite.

How bodoh is tat?

Btw, I would like to make a shoutout.

HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY SAYANGGGG!!!!!

HeH.

=)

LuRpSsSSss.

I wonder how life would be w/o u.

Must be boring being single.

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

My left knee is killing me...!!!!!!

And there's a possibility that the pain

in the arms are coming back again.

I can feel a tinge of the stinging pain I felt while in Indonesia.

I'm currently contemplating whther I should go to school tmr.

On contrasting hand, skipping school means higher opportunity costs

and missing a test and many othersss...

And besides, my new year resolution is to GO to school every day

if there's no significant reasons why I shouldn't.

Therefore, attending school is not a choice but a must!!

Anyway, cheerleading today was a blast!!

I mean, other than the fact that there were many minor accidents

and all that.

Coach accidentally sat on my head and someone elbowed my hand.

On a lighter note, I carried a guy despite my knee injuries!!!

How cool is that?

Anyway, I think there's really nothing to grieve about.

You know who u r who've said this to me.

But seriously, I'm not regretting every bit of it.

It actually feels nice - not being affiliated to anything

which means that 'obligations' would not be appearing in

my dictionaries anytime soon.

NO emotional attachment, which is so me - I mean other than the fact that

I'm emotionally attached to B.

Then again, he understands me. And i love him.

And we always feel free to laugh, cry, talk, scream, shout, joke, sigh and bitch with

each other.

I so hope that B culd come this Sat. The

cheerleaders might be performing.

On the other hand, Saturday should be The Day for us to spend time together

since our anniversary falls on a school which is Friday.

Hopefully he would bring me to St James Power Station and let me see what's it all about.

Ah yes... with May and Choi..

Maybe yes. Maybe no.

I should first overcome my abhorrence towards clubbing.

And maybe understand a thing or two about it.

I dun know why, but I'm beginning to love

school.

I feel so free.

Isnt it crazy? I dun know , but thats exactly

how I feel!!

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

HEYYYY!!!!!

It took me 4 months plus just to search for this song

and im so elated i got it now!!!!

Its my fav song.

It holds a lot of good memories

of the "in between" boyfrens..

Hahah....

Of the time I was soooo freeeee coz schl was like

non existent!!

Enjoy e song ppl..

You know u kinda cute boy

Can you do the work.

I'm looking 4 a rude boy

Put ur hands up!

And if u rubber suit boy,

Cau we play ruff, cau we play ruff!!

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;