Mak's lectures and all the tall talk is finally coming into place.She used to forbid me and kakak from indulging ourselves into the boy whom we (thought) we love in order to prevent ourselves from being hurt.
Love, she says, is not just a godsend cliche' as most song lyrics, novels or movies
gloriously preaches us so.
Love, she adds, is a journey and never a destination.In short, when I was young, she always drums into my ears to stop fiddling with the thought that the boy I was with is "The One" because I was too young to even guesstimate what "The One" means.
Now, after many many failed relationships, I've finally come into terms that maybe I was too young to understand what love means.How can I say "I love you"to someone when I don't know what it means? Deep down I (and most of us young ones) know that what we truly wanted to convey to the significant other is either "I want you"or "I need you" or for the more humbless ones, "I need you to be with me as an evident that I'm still being desired."
To say "I truly love you" is to understand that you truly accept the person for whoever he is, whatever his past may be and knows that you are able to live with his future. Additionally and conventionally, it is also about sacrifice and the other cliche-stuff-which-I-don't-have-to-repeat-here-coz-you-have-already-know-it.
Then again, why say the three letter phrase when its best left unspoken? After all, action speaks louder than words. So let your heart and your hands do the talking and do away with the age old "I love you" talk while staring into his eyes.
But of course, once in a while, your partner would like to have that assurance that he's still being 'loved' , reality aside.
Please don't start guessing that I've broke up with Andy juz becoz I'm writing sappy posts. I'm writing this coz I'm starting to learn what love means.
Even tho we both know how crazy we are about one another, we also realised the possibility of not being able to stay together in the future whatever the trigger may be. So like what he used to tell me, cherish and treasure the moments we have now.
And as I silently agree, I know that by trying not to be too serious and in other words, by not having too many expectations and setting up limits for each other, we are actually trying to save the relationship and bringing it to a higher level instead of the vice versa which many people wrongly believed. Then again, who am I to educate you about love?
Have a nice day while I whisper into his ears about how much I love need him.
