I really miss those times.
No barriers.
No jealousy.
No fights.
No arguments.
No misunderstanding.
Fuck.
I've gotten myself into e deep pit.
In e abyss of entangled mess.
In e point of so called 'no return'.
And only after a couple of months do I
realise e reason y.
I din give myself a chance.
For all e times I've experience
e 'ultimate' bastardo,
I din even stop to catch my breathe.
And there I was, jumping onto another
destiny ride and race.
The next time I experience another
heart shattering ultimatum (hopefully not!),
I swear to god,
I would give myself at the very least 2 yrs to recuperate
and enjoy whatever life has in store for me
- SINGLE.
Then again, I'm not giving up on e one I have right now.
Coz like I said, I've fallen into e deep pit.
Of entanglement and
deep love. If love even exists.
Grow up Aini.
This is not e way u handle problems.
I wanna tell u I love u.
That I'm afraid of losing u.
That I'm grateful tt ur mature and understanding.
I wanna tell u how glad I am with e way u r
and that I think about u 24/7.
Even tho I dun admit it.
I actually do.
You see my problem?
I'm full of ego.
And they say man are supposed to have more of it.
I want to tell u I'm sorry.
What happened was at majority my fault.
But shucks, sorry seems to be the hardest word.
I love u .
Ur e best I could have ever had...
