I know some people are going to blast e highest level on my eardrums.
However, let me first slit this into you.
I lead my on life. And I choose my own path.
In fact, most of the time, the things tt people forces me
to do would result in nothing but a mess or worst - total failure.
Like forcing me to go JC for example.
I am not interested in studies and my results shows.
I don't belong here.
And some people just dun understand.
Its not just the effort. I don't have e love for it.
But look. I am making a name in e fashion business.
People could see I love my job.
I work hard to earn my points.
Because that is where my interest lies.
Okay. Thats not e real reason why I am blogging.
Im done bitching about school anyway.
I have no interest in it.
Im here to blog about my love life.
Yes im single.
But tt doesnt mean im not in love.
In fact, im enjoying every bit of it.
And I know some people hav called me up and said how stupid i was
to fall for him.
But wat can I do? Its e heart issue.
Its not forced.
I love him.
and trust me. when i say love,
its not those typical 'iloveyou uloveme i kentot u lari'
teenage kinda confession.
I know with him we can go far.
And wat is love w/o sacrifice?
That is like. not love.
Love is not about going on dates and everything nice kinda thing.
Its about standing up for each other.
In every moment and problem.
Its about understanding and accepting ones differences, flaws.
Its not only about romance.
Its when you see e person and u know. u'll never leave him
no matter how many problems he has/had.
And wandi is e person whom i feel is right.
maybe not e future.
but as for now.
i know it sounds confusing.
i want to live with him forever. but i have to consider my moms
feelings and how she has sacrifice a lot for me.
but. he's worth a try.
no. he's not tt bastard razaliwandy.
he's katwandi.
he's 35 and divorced with two kids tho not living with em.
and please.
dont ever come up to me and say,
aini. ape ni?
coz i'll slap you right there and then.
its my life.
i dont want to listen to wat other people have to say and then
commit a mistake again and regret it in e later moment.
like how i ended up in a fucking junior college.
=)
sorry if i sound very defensive.
im juz so full of anger today.
i have images of my mom and my teachers in my head.
and i also have images of my interest and
potential career in my heart and mind.
so which do i follow?
is this my life?
or is it theirs?
and another thing is about bestfren. i cant believe she thinks
im trying to play her out.
i did it because im concern godamit.
her fucking bf sms me
saying things like i love you baby. we shud have been together
i will ask her for a break up. then we'll be together
and as a fren, shudnt i be telling her all dat?
fuck.
do wateva u want lah.
kalau u ingat i bastard pon i tk pasal.
im juz so sick of problems.
